i’m a muslim.
these days, i have been listening to maher zain’s “the chosen one”. yes, that song about our beloved Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him). i love the video too, as it includes some excerpts of Rasulullah’s life. a very touching video; it made me teary, somehow. and it made me question myself too.
yes i know about his life – that he was an orphan, who lost his father while he was still in his mother’s womb, lost his mother when he was very young, taken care by his beloved grandfather and then his uncle. that angels came to purify his heart while he was playing. yes i know about his teachings – that we have to spread islam and teach it, even if it’s only a word. be nice to our neighbours even if they don’t believe in the same faith, pray 5 times a day, to fast in ramadhan, to perform hajj when we afford to. yes i know about him. i enjoyed reading anything and everything about him.
yes, i know it all but…how much do i love Rasulullah s.a.w, Allah’s Messenger? have i been doing what he tells us to? did i miss any of the daily prayers? have i been refraining myself from being a sinner? have i? have i? have i?
i am a slacker, i have to admit that. but i never ever regret being a muslim. i am proud of my faith. during religious class, ustaz often tells us that Rasulullah s.a.w. will recognise each and every muslim in hereafter by the nur (holy light) on our faces. and not just anyone or everyone. only those who pray diligently. nur comes from the ablution we take before performing our prayers. and that Rasulullah will use his mukjizat (miracle) to help sincere and diligent muslims on judgement day.will i obtain that nur and receive his miracle?
please correct me if i’m wrong.
*sobs* i wanna be a good muslim. i wanna show good example to my little girl. i wanna fight the syaitan that’s trying to lure me into the dark side. ermmm…no no, i’m not talking about getting wild LOL. ok, i can’t just wish for things to go smoothly. i HAVE to work on it. insya allah (if Allah permits).
in the mean time, please enjoy this video by maher zain – the chosen one.
and here’s another one, a clip from the movie The Message – The Story of Islam. the last part of this movie made me cry buckets, listening to the narrator narrating Rasulullah’s last message before he passed away.
Ya Rasul, please remember me when you see me. *sobs*